The Beginning

After a long and tiring day, including a trip to the ER, I find my self, yet again, unable to sleep. I have felt inspired to create a blog documenting my trials and tribulations so I can share with my friends and family, or anyone who just wants to know more about why I've disappeared.

I consider myself lucky to life this life and I wouldn't trade mine for anything else. My family consists of some of the most lovely, beautiful, caring and goofy people I've ever met. They do not doubt me, and support no matter what new challenge has been presented to me. My wonderful mother drives me to countless doctors appointments and is always by me side when I need water or help to do something. Her strength and determination to keep fighting keeps me in awe and I wish I could be more like her. My incredibly strong father is always there to back me up and he always validates me. He keeps me in check with reality and never focuses on the horrible parts of my life. And my exuberant sister. I may not have been the greatest or most supportive in the past, but I love her more than she could ever know. I want to be there for all her major events, and I want to be able to take care of her. I apologize to her for taking so much attention away from her, she deserves the spot light.

This last week has been the best and the worst of my life. The worst because my heart rate won't settle lower than 110 bpm and shoots up to 160 bpm when I stand. All my joints are swollen, I have open sores in my mouth, on my legs and head, my ears won't stop popping and I have now developed a whooping cough and piercing headaches that like to surprise me when things get a little to quiet. My energy is at an all time low but my spirits are high.

Tuesday, April 13th, I met with Dr. T. He specializes in rheumatology and immunology and believes after he performs a serious of tests he will be able to make an accurate diagnosis. He will be able to then treat me with the appropriate medicine, and possibly even cure me! Fingers crossed for the latter.

Now we are stuck with the grueling task of waiting for the tests to be performed and the results to be analyzed. Admitting me to the hospital is not an option because there is no way to expedite the process and they cannot begin any treatment till we have the test results. So until they come in, my family and I have to make the best of each day despite my pain, for the next month or two.

I will do my best to keep you all updated on my condition, how my days go and the outcome of the to be performed, EEG, Tilt Table Test and various blood work and analysis. Until next time, I wish you all well and the very best of health. Thank you all for supporting me or taking an interest. I now firmly believe that besides science and medicine, there are powerful things out there that none of us will ever understand.

Love always,

-Emma xx